Change

I like change--at least I thought I did. In fact, I have a fear of stagnation, which is probably one of the reasons why attaining stability is so tough for me; after all, don't the words "settle down" imply some form of life stagnation? As of late, whenever I see couples get engaged, or get married, or have children, it freaks me out. Normal, I think. But why do I feel the same way when couples break up?

And perhaps this is the psychology of one who craves change - you don't want things around you to change. You want the world to wait for you; to wait for you until you're ready to embrace settling down, so that the world will change for you while you stay put. In the meanwhile, you hope that the world will stay put while you change.